Guys. Sometimes you wonder if they were meant to be heartbreakers genetically. How come it seems as if they never get their hearts broken. The superhero ability to move on so quickly.

Yet girls always pine for and cry over these people. How different they are from their counterparts. How can guys so easily find someone else and feel the same way.

Question is, is it so difficult to move on?

Perhaps so, but difficulty doesn't mean inability. It just depends on how much you want it. It meaning moving on.

From the time I started listening to my friends problems around me since I was fifteen (thereabouts), there were countless " I can't move on" and " He's the only one". But it's not a can't-move on. Most of the time, it's a " I-don't-want-to-move-on".

You see, thinking of the what-could-have-beens and all the wonderful times shared, how sad the breakup was and how he mistreated you (which justifies the crying) is definitely easier than coming to terms that he will never be yours again and to strive to live a wonderful life unaffected by him. The latter is difficult like I say, but do it.

Do it because you love yourself. Do it because you don't deserve to be unhappy. Do it because the people around you do care.

I'm turning 21 soon and though there's feelings of anticipation, excitement towards the party, I know that once it comes crashing down the feeling would be.

OMG WHY AM I SO OLD NOW?

Then you look at your cousins, little cousins, thinking of them being like you when you were seventeen and you're some middle aged hag undergoing some midlife crisis.

I told myself when I was young I had to be different, I can't be like them out there. Please let me stick to my convictions.

In the meantime, everything's flooding in. Suddenly there's an onslaught of tasks and school hasn't even officially started. Busy busy with a sore throat and burning shoulders, blocked nose, fat ulcer.

Nevertheless, I think I'm a happy girl. FOR NOW. (:

The first day of 2010 is almost coming to an end and so far, it has been awesome. Nothing short of awesome.

Sending ST(sickening toad) off, hanging out with amanda, jm and dodo then coming home to doze off. Total crash.

Sleep has never been so good before and reflecting back, MAYBE 2009 wasn't that bad a year.

But guess what, 2010 would be awesome.

Because because.