Some relationships are worth sustaining and some are not.

For one, family is always the relationship worth sustaining. Don't ever turn your back on them, even if the family's extended, we're still family. Why choose money over family? I couldn't believe it when you said that. They came, old, sick and tired to just come and spend time with us. What's that few hours of measly pay as compared to what you could have maintained? If they ever knew, you do not know how hurt they would be.

My opinions have not been that negatively strong, but yesterday was the limit. I wouldn't even recognise Daniel if I were to meet him on the streets. And why so? You tell me. It's definitely not me, because I never miss a single one. The only one I can even connect with is Michelle, and I feel for her. In fact, I'm always amazed she comes sometimes because how can you be close to an extended family when you are always so distant from them?

Change when you've got time to salvage the relationship. I know you're not even going to read this anyway, but I just had to voice it out. It's family, we share something others don't. If you're going to throw it away, don't expect others to pick it up again. Because by then, it's too late.

I don't know what to write. A perfect entry formed in my head, yet it can't be expressed.

It's bad enough already. But it's empty. Yes, empty.

The few lessons I had in a bad day like today.

- don't try to be smart and carry two thumbdrives everywhere. Cos one will get lost.
- don't leave something as important as keys and handphone with someone else, because you'll forget to get them back.
- don't use professors as interviewees in future. Because it's so hard gettng interviews.
- But on the hindsight, engineering profs are nicer than business profs when it comes to interviews (:

My inner CD player is faulty. This song is on repeat mode.

Let’s have bizarre celebrations
Let’s forget who forget what forget where
We’ll have bizarre celebrations
I’ll play the Satyr in Cypris you the bride being stripped bare(bare)

Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica
Let's pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica (ah-ah-ahh)

Let’s have bizarre celebrations
Lets forget when forget what forget how
We’ll have bizarre celebrations
We’ll play Tristan and Izolde but make sure I see white sails (sails)

Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica
Let's pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in an Antarctica (ah-ah-ahh)

Maybe I’ll never die I’ll just keep growing younger with you
And you’ll grow younger too
Now it seems too lovely to be true
But I know the best things always do

Just a random conversation I had with my mom in the car that day

Mum: As your mother I have the right to go and see!
Me: No you don't, and you're not going to!
Mum: Hah try me, since I'm driving the car I can drive to where ever I want and you cannot stop me!
Me: fine mum. ANGRY ALREADY.
Mum: okay fine I shan't see then.

It's a wonder how I can still be sitting in front of the computer typing this out because life is so tiring right now all I want to do is scream " shut up everyone" but I'm not gonna do so because it's not gonna help but please try to shut up and stop adding more stress because I'm already so stressed and it's enough and I can't even sleep without waking up to a pseudo womanizer ringtone which might be the cause of my migraine and runny nose and sometimes all I want to do is to go home and sleep but what the heck there's a fat lizard who made so much noise when I try to sleep it's amazing how I decided to spare it's life but not any longer cos I placed 2 lizard traps around the room hoping it will die so yeah this is the end of my one sentence blogpost because when you're stressed punctations don't matter anymore fullstop

The thing about packing your room is that sometimes, you find things you don't expect to find. Some things which have been shelved away into some dark corner in your room, and your memory. But when you find it once again, there're just a few reactions one can expect to have.

Firstly, you can look at it with disdain, then throw it away because it doesn't matter to you anymore.

Or you can be reminded of the past, not in a bad way and think about what you had, and put it back in the dark corner where it belongs.

Lastly, you can keep it in some prominent part of your room and be reminded all the time, thinking of the 'what could have beens' which might serve to torment yourself.

Maybe that's why I don't like packing, because much more time is taken to decide which of these 3 options I should take rather than the actual packing itself. And sometimes the right decision isn't made. Or finding space in my room/memory to store it.

Too bad there're no IKEAS for memories. Thank goodness for IKEAS for physical spaces though.

A hundred and one 'what ifs' with one big 'tell me why'.

Cheryl, chill.

This is what I go home too (: Exams are coming and I'll probably miss tons of these in the weeks to come.

Another suicide in NTU. Why why why? But I'm not them, I'm not going through what they had gone throgh. But God loved you, so why throw aside what He blessed you with?

:(

this is what love is.

It has been almost a year since the incident . It was probably the darkest period of my life and how I tried to run away by going to another country without bringing my phone. How I tried to heal there. But I'm glad everything's alright now, because of the Provider.

It has been a year. My life was planned by my selfish ambitions, now I'm glad You made it the way You wanted it to be.

I praise You, Lord (: