God is a father to us. He created us. He created the world. He knows what's best for us.

When things don't go our way, sometimes we wonder, why God, why does it happen. Is it me? Was it because I sinned?

Sometimes it is because we sinned and God wants us to learn what's right. Sometimes things happen to test our faith, like how Job's faith was tested. But no matter what, it is always for the good of us.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

But God is God, He isn't Santa Claus. Sometimes, instead of praying for things which we want, we should be praying for what's good for us (: Because when God doesn't give us what we want, instead of praying, I KNOW HE WILL I KNOW HE WILL BECAUSE I DESERVE IT, why not pray for the courage and strength to accept what is not given and make the best out of it? Because He knows best, not us (:

God may be our father, and like most fathers, He doesn't give us whatever we want, He doesn't spoil us, but whatever He does shapes our characters to make us the best person we can possibly be (:

Looking around me I see tons of nice-to-haves and good-to-haves.

JM asked me why I tend to get into the sian mood so often recently. Seriously I don't know why too. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's the lack of something, or a certain unbalance in my life which I can't put a stop to.

Maybe I'm hibernating again. Pull me out before you leave, A.

A sense of nostalgia when I see my best friends in hall campaigning, and preparing for it.
Well, to be really honest, the thought of running again did seriously cross my mind. But why did I choose not to? Sometimes, I would think, hmmmm maybe I should. But now not.

Because.

You all would do a better job than me. Much as I loved my time in JCRC, I knew I couldn't have handled it alone. I was a freshie, people guided and helped me. Now, I would have to guide and help the rest. That's quite an uphill task for me. So...

To my successor: It might be stressful at first, but you can seriously do it!

To YA: hahaha no more C, but you all will be my best friends in hall! Let the CYA be legendary and continue with the legacy of SAY (:

To my dearest roomie: SQUIRTLE! hahahahaha if anyone tries to bully you, do the hydro-pump on them!

and to the rest of you: ALL THE VERY BEST!

On the way back from vivo with Mag, this was what happened.

Me: Hey remember the tv shows we used to watch? Oh there's power rangers too!

Mag: Only the first season was good.

Me: I liked kimberley! the pink ranger

Mag: yeah everyone liked her, then the yellow one... lala is it

Me: hmmm i thought it's trini

-pause-

both of us: Ohhhh LALA IS THE YELLOW TELLYTUBBY.

Jash on tuesday. I feel young again.

Auditions on wed: I feel out of place.

Lessons today: I feel stupid/rusty.

And that thing which happened: I believe that God will protect you. And I'll be praying for you. I know it hurts but please be strong. Like how I'll always end our conversations, mwahh.

You're a strong person. Please show me you can.

I would very much prefer to

stay home and sleep till eleven

remain free

than to begin it all

over again.

One more day to camp. Hopefully everything turns out alright, and i get to have truckloads of fun!

School's starting soon. I am so not used to it. Can't be king of the house anymore. Damn.