I'm so confused right now. Someone please tell me what to do.

:(

Happy Birthday Carebear (:

Love you for always being there.

Sometimes, simple things like going home can feel really good. Like waking up to a gunshot noise with people cheering for, darn, RJC and then grans chopping noises in the kitchen. Realising the room is cold. Spreading arms out on the bed and not touching the ends. Sleeping with 2 pillows. Then realising I haven't really woken up yet and going to sleep on my parent's bed. Cos it's bigger.

Even waiting for nic to come back from work so that we can catch up makes me happy. AND kenneth hasn't been home all the time.

JC got so busy meh?

Time away from books. I don't know what to say here but all I can say is that my mind is made up.

Because if we lived in a world just meant for you and me, I don't think we'll be happy. Let's just be in the separate worlds we're in.

I think that's where we're meant to be.

Claire was in my room just now, and we were having this conversation

Me: Eh claire, come see my pet, ai wen -points to the bear on the bed-

Claire: Huh? How come your your pet is not Pedro?

Me: Hmmm, if Pedro was my pet, I would have sent him to SPCA a long time ago.

Claire: HAHAHAHA!

Grans have been telling me to clear my wardrobe at home because it has already burst, literally What I did not tell her was that I have been continually buying clothes and i have another 2 door wardrobe in school pretty filled with clothes too. Oh joy, I'm in trouble this time. Maybe I should start giving my clothes away. Again.

Two months. I think it's good to think and reflect on how much we want it.

June 13th. I've got a good feeling about this (:

At least give me a chance to make amends. I've already made the promise. Please?

hahahahaha. I'm glad I've found myself.

Just some random conversation I had with my friend Nick that day (:

N: Can you do my homework?
Me: No.
N: Pretty please.
Me: No.
N: Pretty please with sugar on the top.
Me: Still no.
N: I thought we were friends
Me: Hey, you know Ruben Studdard?
N: Yah, why?? Eh help me do my homework la!
Me: Have you seen hope fatter than him?
N: No, why?
Me: Well, now you have (:

A part of me which I have always wanted to bury has recently surfaced again.

I confided.

I'm glad I'm not alone.

One important lesson I learnt.

When God allows obstacles and setbacks in your life, He doesn't just allow it to happen alone.

He puts people there in your life to help you pull through.

The tasks were never ending. They were daunting. But all it took was a phone call to say,

"Mum, I'm tired."

No questions asked, they came.

And that hug was all that mattered.