I'm turning 21 soon and though there's feelings of anticipation, excitement towards the party, I know that once it comes crashing down the feeling would be.

OMG WHY AM I SO OLD NOW?

Then you look at your cousins, little cousins, thinking of them being like you when you were seventeen and you're some middle aged hag undergoing some midlife crisis.

I told myself when I was young I had to be different, I can't be like them out there. Please let me stick to my convictions.

In the meantime, everything's flooding in. Suddenly there's an onslaught of tasks and school hasn't even officially started. Busy busy with a sore throat and burning shoulders, blocked nose, fat ulcer.

Nevertheless, I think I'm a happy girl. FOR NOW. (: