I feel your pain and if I could I would be there to hug you. And then we'll go back to who we used to be, back two years ago, back to the times we spent in school. Then we will forget how much we have changed and be happy like we used to be. Come back soon, we'll make a pact, because the world around us is changing but we will stand firm on our beliefs. Because success can be attained in other ways, joy can be derived from other ways too. I've made plans for us. We're set to change.

(:

It's odd how I blog twice a day. But somehow I felt the urge to.

Something did happen which affected me. In fact, it got me distressed. Got me thinking. Got me praying, for an answer.

It even made me reflect on what happened in the past. Maybe it was due to it. Yeah, well, all the different maybes.

But God answered me. And it isn't so often He answers me this directly.

It came in a form of a note from a friend on facebook. I won't type all he said, but just the few lines which impacted me.

" God isn't impressed on how much we can play with fire and not get burnt. God would much rather have us stay as far away as possible from fire. "

Thank you Lord (:

Did a matched-guise test recording today and wowee, it was rather fun.

Pam said that I have the makings of a CAL. I seriously hope not.

I think, she meant I was good at code-switching ((:

Hellish week ahead. I don't even want to think about it. Project submissions, tests and oh yeah, joint hall closing. Perfectly wonderful. And when i finally think i get to rest during the recess week, voila! I'm going to pulau ubin!

I would marvel if I made it through this week.

Laziness can be a bad thing. So can passion. Once it's lost, it might take alot to reignite it. Or in my case, a video.

Thank goodness it's back again.

And that's why, I decided to continue with my music studies. To tinkle those ivories (:

Fantasie Impromptu, Moonlight Sonata Movement 3 and Eine Kleine Nachtmusik here I come!

I'm officially 20.
But it doesn't matter, because I don't feel 20.

But being 20 made me realise what's important to me. Who matters. What matters.

Cheers to an awesome 20 (:

Facebook can be a depressing thing sometimes. It's not just the status updates, latest happenings which are going on around you. Sometimes, when you just sign into facebook, you get photo updates, event updates.

And you don't see yourself on it. AND you were supposed to be there.

Then you start recalling why you weren't there. Oh because you were busy. Because you had other commitments. Because because.

I know it's unfair sometimes and I can't always have my cake and eat it. But reality check. Friends will forget and move on. Then it will all sink in. And it will hurt.

I've been doing alot of thinking. I don't want to lose you guys. I really don't. But I don't know how to go about doing it. Solving the problem. Or should I say problems because it's not just one group of you. I can't let you all move on without me because I still want to be a part of this.

painful.